Just for fun

Well I dont have any pictures to post today, Im at my parents visiting, So when I get home I will post my fun here. But I thought just for fun, Ive seen this on other blogs. I would like you, whoever you are reading my blog to post a comment on why you like to read/look at my blog. I dont care if I know you or not Im just curious to see who looks at this thing and why. I dont find myself that entertaining, but maybe some of you do. Again this is just for fun and Im honestly just curious to see who in the cyberspace world is checkin me out!

New Moon

I cannot wait for this movie. The trailer just came out tonight on MTV and I couldn't resist putting it on here. All I have to say is HELLO JACOB! However I still love you Edward Cullen
You'll have to mute my music

ENJOY

YEP that's right, I knew all along. Maverick will be the best big brother! We do have a name but we want to wait until he's born to tell everyone. And the other good news is they moved my due date up three days, Thats the best news yet!

Is it a boy or is it a girl?????

In the morning at 10:30 we get to hopefully find out what we are having. I hope the baby shows itself because I'm having a hard time not knowing what it is. Just for fun for all of you who read this post before tomorrow, leave a comment on what you predict it to be. It should be fun to see how many are right.
I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO excited to know!!

Happy Birthday

Saturday was Maverick's 2nd birthday. We had a CARS party with some of Mav's little friends. I was so happy that my parents were able to come and visit spending the whole weekend with us. Last year like any new mom, I went WAY overboard on his birthday. I overstimulated him and he didnt have a very good time. This year I tried to be better and just have a few people and I think it turned out really nice.

Tryin so hard to blow out the candles........

Whoops I touched the flame, OUCH

And this is a tired 2 year old who had enough partying for one day

DONT ask me why I bought a transformer pinata instead of CARS, I almost punced a women in the face at Walmart over that one, but Im working through it. LOL


I made a little DVD of Maverick over the last year, starting from his last birthday. I cant believe how much he has grown. I think everyone enjoyed watching it

The other part of his birthday is the new puppy that will be coming home the first of June. BUT we couldnt wait so we got this great, overweight winer dog. His name is Rambo. He is supposed to weigh about 12 pounds but this chucky monkey weighs 25 pounds. We got him from a little old lady who's husband just pasted away and she couldnt take him with her where she was moving. He was free and the best little dog ever.

I can only hope that his laid back personality will help train the new puppy. He's quite the little, ok BIG stud

My cup overfloweth

As I reflect on Mothers day and actually being a mother my heart is so full. Maverick has totally changed me. I cant even recall life without him. The joy and comfort a child brings into your life is like nothing ever felt. I often think of my sweet friends who have adopted children and realize that it doesnt matter how you became a mom, its how the child makes you one. Its in the way they make you feel whole and Heavenly fathers way of telling you he's proud of you, what a gift.

I used to really be into writing alot of poems but I havent written much lately, Actually not even one since Maverick was born. However its not something I sit and make up, I write them as they come to me. Soooooo I want to share a poem I wrote to my whole little world, Maverick!


Maverick

Who would I be without you? Where would my life be now?
I know I could be happy, I know I could feel love, but how?

Your smile lights the room, Your laugh it feels my soul.
I have never in my life felt my heart be so whole.

You are the reason I get up in the morning, the reason I get out of bed
The reason that these happy thoughts, bounce around my head.

A gift from my father in heaven, a true blessing unto me.
When you look into my eyes tell me what you see.

I hope you see my love for you, I hope you see my smile.
I hope you always how know you make my life worth while.

Thank you for the smiles, thank you for the tears, You are worth
every second, even all my fears.

I love you my little Maverick



Anyway I also wanted to share some of the cutest kid alive AGAIN. I took these at dinner tonight while sitting on the patio.


Look at those lips........SOOOOO cute.
I hope that all of you had a wonderful mother's day and feel the same blessing as I do of being a mother

Check out my photography blog, listed on the side here.(photos by Murry) Let me know what you think of the pics Ive been taking lately.

He's getting so big

So finally after weeks of talking myself out of it, I put Maverick in a big boy bed. Nephi and I spent some time putting it together, all leading up to the big finish of me crying like a five year old when he laid in it.


We went with the CARS theme because Maverick is really obsessed with it. I really cant believe how well he handled the change. Again it was me who cried when he got into it, not him. I try to look into the future and see that I have a little baby on the way and that he really does have to grow up someday, even if I hate it. He is such a wonderful little boy and really is the center of our lives. I am trying to look forward to the changes instead of kicking and screaming about them coming. I guess he's been ready for the bed for quite some time now, I just had to give in.

A horrible thing with a happy ending

First of all I want to thank everyone who commented on my last post. I have the greatest friends in my life. I'm feeling so much more uplifted and happy I got those things off of my chest.

Ok so Friday turned out to be one of the most horrific days of my life!!
It all started when I heard the most awful growling sound coming out of my dog, Tyson in the front room.(the dog we just got not two months ago) I was in my bedroom when I first heard it. I didn't think I heard right because he has NEVER growled. Well I heard it again so I went running down the hallway to see what was wrong. Just before I reached the room the Tyson turned and pinned Maverick by his neck and bit him on his forehead. Maverick screamed so loud it broke my heart. All I can tell that happened after that was that I saw red! I hit the dog so hard that I bruised my fingertips and they are now black and blue. I put him in his kennel and started bawling. I couldn't believe that had just happened. I quickly checked Maverick and to my surprise he was ok. The dog just nicked his head because I made it just in time. It makes me sick to think what would have happened had I been in the shower or something. He now has a few little bruises on his forehead but like I said it could have been much worse.
Well I immediately got on the phone and called the shelter we got him from and tried to tell them through the tears what had happened. The shelter came and picked him up. I told them I didn't want a dog I couldn't trust. It was heart wrenching. Maverick keeps asking where he is. They were buddies. That's why I cant understand what happened. It was so hard on Maverick that last night was the first night ever he wouldn't sleep in his room. He had a bad dream (I think about what happened) and woke up screaming. Not to mention I couldn't sleep either replaying it in my mind.
Anyway I called my mom bawling. I cried for 4 hours straight. I was sad to get rid of the dog, I hate the dog, I love the dog all those things going through my head. My mom had the idea that she wanted to get Maverick a puppy for his birthday. She and I both think that he needs a puppy to grow up with that gets used to him. Maverick's birthday is the 16th so I got online and started looking. WE FOUND ONE. He wont be ready until the first week in June, which I think is great. It gives us time to get over what happened and try to heal alittle. We went and put a payment down on him tonight and I wanted to share the pics. He is adorable. He is our happy ending



Just look at that face, he is so cute you could eat him. He is a min pin/jack Russel mix. I believe he will be great for Maverick and hes small enough to take in the car. I swore I didnt want a puppy and Im anti potty training but I guess I have to get over that. I hope I never have to go through something like that again.

A perfect brightness of hope

The last few days I have been feeling down. I cant decide if its hormones or me really actually feeling whats going on in my head. Making the choice to become a latter day saint was one of the single most challenging things I have ever done. Not because I didn't feel it was right but because it was something different than what I grew up and different from my family. Making the call to tell my parents that I was joining was also difficult. I wanted them to know they were invited and wanted them to feel apart of it but knew it would hurt them deeply, especially my mom. However I prayed to my father in heaven for them to try and understand, and they really tried, enough that they came to my baptism. Well here it is 4 years later and things have been for a lack of better words, different. I feel different from my family, I feel distant and not part. That is truly a hard thing for me. I know that they don't want me to feel that way but I do. In a sense I am different and I do believe differently than they do, but I love them unconditionally. I feel like the ugly duckling, or the black sheep. My family really has been great at not bringing up religion and not making me uncomfortable but I know that they talk about me. I know that my mom's way of dealing with it is by talking about it to the people in here church and to my siblings. That hurts, I know she doesn't mean for it to but it does. They all really feel that I'm confused and that I dont believe in the church. And I'm soooo not confused, I have more clarity in my life now than I ever have. Anyone that knew me before I joined the church knows how different I am now and how much happiness I have in my life because of it. I just wish my family could see that. This is one of the scriptures that I reflect upon when I'm having trials like this one.
"Wherefore, ye must press forward with a steadfastness in Christ, having a perfect brightness of hope, and a love of God and of all men. Wherefore, if ye shall press forward, feasting upon the word of Christ, and endure to the end, behold, thus saith the Father: Ye shall have eternal life" (2 Nephi 31:18–20).
As I sit here with tears in my eyes reflecting upon those words again I know them to be true. I must press forward and put my shoulder to the wheel and know that in the end this will all be worth it. I have a wonderful family that love me very much and struggle to understand me, but I also have a church family that love me also. I have eternal family with my husband,son and unborn child that help me to keep my prospective. I think I just needed to write this out and look back over it to realize the many blessings I DO have in my life and to remember to pray for understanding in my family. For those of you who actually took the time to read this whole post, Thank you. I'm grateful for my life and the way my savior saved me from the path I was headed before my baptism. I know the Church is true, I know that being sealed to my family is one of my biggest blessings. I love them very much. And I'm thankful for the gospel and the real clarity it brings into my life.

Bath fun

With a mom who is crazy about her camera, you cant even take a bath without her bugging you for pictures. Tonight I couldn't resist taking some pics of Maverick while he was playing. I love his eyes, I always have and always will. They are amazing!



I was playing with my editing program and turned this one into an oil painting. I think it looks cool.

Just thought I would share the cutest boy in the world with you today. And girls beware these eyes will someday steal the hearts of many women! And that is one thing Im not happy about. I already feel there is NO girl good enough for my son. lol

A little fishin

Yesterday was a beautiful day and the perfect chance to take Maverick fishing with his new poll the Easter bunny brought.

This is Maverick's excited thing he does, he shakes and makes his mouth look like a bird beak. Its sooooooo cute. He loved watching daddy cast his poll

This was something Nephi has waited his whole life to do, fish with his son. He loved it

"Look at me cast daddy"



No Maverick didn't catch this fish, I did. And of course no one got my picture because I'm the only one that takes pictures. And yes it was very hard for me to let him touch it, don't even worry I WASHED his hands! But I'm happy to say I'm the only one that caught a fish!

It was a great day spent as a family. Nephi thought Maverick was a little hard, but I just kept reminding him that he is a 2 year old. Enough said.