Funktified

So I have been in a funk for awhile. I haven't had anything nice to say and so like my mother taught me I said nothing at all. However I know that by living in my crap Ill always have a stink outlook so I have been dragging myself out of it and thought Id blog alittle today.
Nothing too exciting to blog about, I have been doing alot of training with my horse and am very happy about where Ive gotten her. She loves my kids and I love watching them with her. Sometimes I think she loves them more than me. They have been begging me for some time to come and ride so I took them this last week. We had so much fun...
Maverick could live on her back for hours. I cant wait for this summer to take him with me on some trail rides. I bought this little buddy saddle that hooks onto the back of my saddle last year and have yet to really use it. It has a back rest, a hand hold and his own set of stirrups. Pretty awsome little thing. I had to have my horse at a place that I could drop bombs next to her before I started letting Maverick ride in it.
I cant even put into words what having this horse has done for me. She is my Prozac. She helps me see the good things in life, she is my therapy. I know that as women, mothers, and wives life gets so hard at times. For me I needed something to keep me going, to fill my cup at the end of the day after Id given to everyone else. For some people that cup gets filled with scrap booking, reading, shopping, running, whatever it may be I feel its so important that you find what your "therapy" is. I was medicated for post pardum after having Kanon, and I would do it again in a second, it helped me through some tough times. However I never felt better than I did when I got off of it and starting receiving the same if not better benefit in my horse. Life is hard enough as it is, I think we all need a good pick me up from time to time.
So being funktified is not a fun place to be but I'm pulling myself out and hope to blog a little more

Happy Birthday my first born son

I cant believe 4 years have gone by, you have completely changed my life. You made me a mom, something I gave up on in my life. The day you came into this world was truly unbelievable. Again, thank you for choosing me to be your mommy. Love you to the moon and back


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Day 30-Your favorite song

Tears, cheers, and a few different emotions that I'm actually done with this 30 day challenge. Id say over all I really did like doing it.
My favorite song...
I have alot of favorite songs but this one has been on my mind throughout all my trials the past while. Please take a min and actually listen to this song. It might just lift you up and make you feel good.

Day 29-In this past month, what have you learned?

Day 29 huh, this brings a tear to my eye. Only one day left of this silly challenge.
I have learned alot in the last month, first off dont put expectations on people. People will let you down and hurt you so dont expect too much. Ive learned some more patience, as if I havent had to have enough of it the past two years. Ive learned and felt even more of my Saviors love for me

Day 28-A picture of you from last year and now-how have you changed?

Not much has changed in the last year, maybe my weight up and down but what women doesn't have that happen. LOL
My family is still beautiful as ever
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This year

Day 27-Why you are doing this 30 day challenge

Lets face it, my blog was lacking in the love department. So I did this challenge hoping to get me back into the swing of posting. I'm glad I did it, its been kinda fun. I didn't get the response I was looking for, I thought Id get some more comments but Its all good. I'm back and I'm gonna be posting, so LOOK out

Day 26-What do you think about your friends

This is a rather weird question, but here goes. I don't "think" I have great friends, I KNOW I do! I have such a variety of friends its really great. I have my High school girls that I love so dearly, its really great we are still so close after all these years. I have my ward friends that keep me grounded and I love to see on Sundays. I have my friends like Wade and Courtney that I worked with in physical therapy, you should check out their blogs. Wade is one of my faithful followers of my blog, I love seeing comments from him because I know he really reads my stuff. And I have my bestest friend Veronica that I feel I knew before this life, she is so great to me. I have so many other friends I cant even keep putting in categories. I truly am blessed

Day 25-What I would find in your bag

You would find a calculator, two diapers, a wipes container, wallet, makeup, my photography cards in a cute lil case, leather men (I know I rock), my WIC packet (poor people packet), two packs of gum and a packet of hot sauce from taco time in case my son mouths off in public LOL

Day 24-A letter to your parents

Dear Mom and Dad,
There really aren't words to express how much I love you or miss you. I know this family is where we are supposed to be, but my heart aches not being able to see you. You have done so much for us and we are so grateful. I also know that we have had our share of differences, I know you don't agree with my faith and I cant imagine how hard that is for you. As for me I know that pain first hand. When I made my choice to join the L.D.S church it was the greatest choice I have EVER made. It makes me the mother,wife,sister,daughter and person I am today. It makes me want to be a better person, and I feel fulfilled. I have a Heavenly Father who I know is proud of me and loves me very much. He is the center of my life and without him I don't know where I would be. So although we may not share the same faith, we do share the same love for him and that for me makes all the difference. Ive never really been able to share my testimony with you and have longed to. I know this church is true, I know that to core of my being. I know that our Prophet Thomas S. Monson was called by God to lead and guide us. I know that I will get to be with my family in eternity, and I couldn't imagine life any other way. I also know of the peace and perfection of the temple. The temple has brought so much joy and happiness to my life, the spirit of God is so strong there it cannot be denied. And although this might be hard for you to read or to except, its just me! Its how my life has changed and become fulfilled in way it never has before. Thank you for teaching me of the love of my saviour and the importance of having a relationship with him. I love you both heaps and again want to express how much I miss you. I know you aren't that far away but wish I could see you whenever I wanted. You'll probably never read this, but it felt very freeing for me to write it to you.
love you, love you, love you,
Your daughter, Shawna aka "Murry"

Day's 22 and 23

Day 22-What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23-Something you crave for a lot

What makes me different from everyone else? Well I'm a different faith than my immediate family, and that's hard at times. I hate seafood, I smell everything even if its really gross like the lint between my kids toes. (I know I know its sick but I cant help it) This really is one of the dumber questions so I have no idea what else to say.

Something I crave alot would be affection. And the sucky thing is I married someone who is not overly affectionate and that's hard on me sometimes. I also CRAVE Coke(meaning Coca Cola) but that would actually be better described as an addiction

Day 21-A picture of something that makes you happy

Being a mother has brought me happiness like Ive never known. These boys are always making me laugh, I love them to pieces.
Doesn't Kanon look like Simon on Alvin and the chipmunks?

Maverick got this police man kit at Walmart and this is him making his mad face posing for the camera. Are you kidding me? I cant believe these perfect beans are mine

Day 20-Someone you see yourself marrying or being with in the future

I'm actually rather lucky, I'm married to the man of my dreams..... Wedding day Aug. 5th 2006

And I'm lucky enough to not only see him in my future but in the eternities also.. This is our sealing day picture Sept. 20th 2008