Happy Birthday

Saturday was Maverick's 2nd birthday. We had a CARS party with some of Mav's little friends. I was so happy that my parents were able to come and visit spending the whole weekend with us. Last year like any new mom, I went WAY overboard on his birthday. I overstimulated him and he didnt have a very good time. This year I tried to be better and just have a few people and I think it turned out really nice.

Tryin so hard to blow out the candles........

Whoops I touched the flame, OUCH

And this is a tired 2 year old who had enough partying for one day

DONT ask me why I bought a transformer pinata instead of CARS, I almost punced a women in the face at Walmart over that one, but Im working through it. LOL


I made a little DVD of Maverick over the last year, starting from his last birthday. I cant believe how much he has grown. I think everyone enjoyed watching it

The other part of his birthday is the new puppy that will be coming home the first of June. BUT we couldnt wait so we got this great, overweight winer dog. His name is Rambo. He is supposed to weigh about 12 pounds but this chucky monkey weighs 25 pounds. We got him from a little old lady who's husband just pasted away and she couldnt take him with her where she was moving. He was free and the best little dog ever.

I can only hope that his laid back personality will help train the new puppy. He's quite the little, ok BIG stud

My cup overfloweth

As I reflect on Mothers day and actually being a mother my heart is so full. Maverick has totally changed me. I cant even recall life without him. The joy and comfort a child brings into your life is like nothing ever felt. I often think of my sweet friends who have adopted children and realize that it doesnt matter how you became a mom, its how the child makes you one. Its in the way they make you feel whole and Heavenly fathers way of telling you he's proud of you, what a gift.

I used to really be into writing alot of poems but I havent written much lately, Actually not even one since Maverick was born. However its not something I sit and make up, I write them as they come to me. Soooooo I want to share a poem I wrote to my whole little world, Maverick!


Maverick

Who would I be without you? Where would my life be now?
I know I could be happy, I know I could feel love, but how?

Your smile lights the room, Your laugh it feels my soul.
I have never in my life felt my heart be so whole.

You are the reason I get up in the morning, the reason I get out of bed
The reason that these happy thoughts, bounce around my head.

A gift from my father in heaven, a true blessing unto me.
When you look into my eyes tell me what you see.

I hope you see my love for you, I hope you see my smile.
I hope you always how know you make my life worth while.

Thank you for the smiles, thank you for the tears, You are worth
every second, even all my fears.

I love you my little Maverick



Anyway I also wanted to share some of the cutest kid alive AGAIN. I took these at dinner tonight while sitting on the patio.


Look at those lips........SOOOOO cute.
I hope that all of you had a wonderful mother's day and feel the same blessing as I do of being a mother

Check out my photography blog, listed on the side here.(photos by Murry) Let me know what you think of the pics Ive been taking lately.

He's getting so big

So finally after weeks of talking myself out of it, I put Maverick in a big boy bed. Nephi and I spent some time putting it together, all leading up to the big finish of me crying like a five year old when he laid in it.


We went with the CARS theme because Maverick is really obsessed with it. I really cant believe how well he handled the change. Again it was me who cried when he got into it, not him. I try to look into the future and see that I have a little baby on the way and that he really does have to grow up someday, even if I hate it. He is such a wonderful little boy and really is the center of our lives. I am trying to look forward to the changes instead of kicking and screaming about them coming. I guess he's been ready for the bed for quite some time now, I just had to give in.

A horrible thing with a happy ending

First of all I want to thank everyone who commented on my last post. I have the greatest friends in my life. I'm feeling so much more uplifted and happy I got those things off of my chest.

Ok so Friday turned out to be one of the most horrific days of my life!!
It all started when I heard the most awful growling sound coming out of my dog, Tyson in the front room.(the dog we just got not two months ago) I was in my bedroom when I first heard it. I didn't think I heard right because he has NEVER growled. Well I heard it again so I went running down the hallway to see what was wrong. Just before I reached the room the Tyson turned and pinned Maverick by his neck and bit him on his forehead. Maverick screamed so loud it broke my heart. All I can tell that happened after that was that I saw red! I hit the dog so hard that I bruised my fingertips and they are now black and blue. I put him in his kennel and started bawling. I couldn't believe that had just happened. I quickly checked Maverick and to my surprise he was ok. The dog just nicked his head because I made it just in time. It makes me sick to think what would have happened had I been in the shower or something. He now has a few little bruises on his forehead but like I said it could have been much worse.
Well I immediately got on the phone and called the shelter we got him from and tried to tell them through the tears what had happened. The shelter came and picked him up. I told them I didn't want a dog I couldn't trust. It was heart wrenching. Maverick keeps asking where he is. They were buddies. That's why I cant understand what happened. It was so hard on Maverick that last night was the first night ever he wouldn't sleep in his room. He had a bad dream (I think about what happened) and woke up screaming. Not to mention I couldn't sleep either replaying it in my mind.
Anyway I called my mom bawling. I cried for 4 hours straight. I was sad to get rid of the dog, I hate the dog, I love the dog all those things going through my head. My mom had the idea that she wanted to get Maverick a puppy for his birthday. She and I both think that he needs a puppy to grow up with that gets used to him. Maverick's birthday is the 16th so I got online and started looking. WE FOUND ONE. He wont be ready until the first week in June, which I think is great. It gives us time to get over what happened and try to heal alittle. We went and put a payment down on him tonight and I wanted to share the pics. He is adorable. He is our happy ending



Just look at that face, he is so cute you could eat him. He is a min pin/jack Russel mix. I believe he will be great for Maverick and hes small enough to take in the car. I swore I didnt want a puppy and Im anti potty training but I guess I have to get over that. I hope I never have to go through something like that again.

A perfect brightness of hope

The last few days I have been feeling down. I cant decide if its hormones or me really actually feeling whats going on in my head. Making the choice to become a latter day saint was one of the single most challenging things I have ever done. Not because I didn't feel it was right but because it was something different than what I grew up and different from my family. Making the call to tell my parents that I was joining was also difficult. I wanted them to know they were invited and wanted them to feel apart of it but knew it would hurt them deeply, especially my mom. However I prayed to my father in heaven for them to try and understand, and they really tried, enough that they came to my baptism. Well here it is 4 years later and things have been for a lack of better words, different. I feel different from my family, I feel distant and not part. That is truly a hard thing for me. I know that they don't want me to feel that way but I do. In a sense I am different and I do believe differently than they do, but I love them unconditionally. I feel like the ugly duckling, or the black sheep. My family really has been great at not bringing up religion and not making me uncomfortable but I know that they talk about me. I know that my mom's way of dealing with it is by talking about it to the people in here church and to my siblings. That hurts, I know she doesn't mean for it to but it does. They all really feel that I'm confused and that I dont believe in the church. And I'm soooo not confused, I have more clarity in my life now than I ever have. Anyone that knew me before I joined the church knows how different I am now and how much happiness I have in my life because of it. I just wish my family could see that. This is one of the scriptures that I reflect upon when I'm having trials like this one.
"Wherefore, ye must press forward with a steadfastness in Christ, having a perfect brightness of hope, and a love of God and of all men. Wherefore, if ye shall press forward, feasting upon the word of Christ, and endure to the end, behold, thus saith the Father: Ye shall have eternal life" (2 Nephi 31:18–20).
As I sit here with tears in my eyes reflecting upon those words again I know them to be true. I must press forward and put my shoulder to the wheel and know that in the end this will all be worth it. I have a wonderful family that love me very much and struggle to understand me, but I also have a church family that love me also. I have eternal family with my husband,son and unborn child that help me to keep my prospective. I think I just needed to write this out and look back over it to realize the many blessings I DO have in my life and to remember to pray for understanding in my family. For those of you who actually took the time to read this whole post, Thank you. I'm grateful for my life and the way my savior saved me from the path I was headed before my baptism. I know the Church is true, I know that being sealed to my family is one of my biggest blessings. I love them very much. And I'm thankful for the gospel and the real clarity it brings into my life.

Bath fun

With a mom who is crazy about her camera, you cant even take a bath without her bugging you for pictures. Tonight I couldn't resist taking some pics of Maverick while he was playing. I love his eyes, I always have and always will. They are amazing!



I was playing with my editing program and turned this one into an oil painting. I think it looks cool.

Just thought I would share the cutest boy in the world with you today. And girls beware these eyes will someday steal the hearts of many women! And that is one thing Im not happy about. I already feel there is NO girl good enough for my son. lol

A little fishin

Yesterday was a beautiful day and the perfect chance to take Maverick fishing with his new poll the Easter bunny brought.

This is Maverick's excited thing he does, he shakes and makes his mouth look like a bird beak. Its sooooooo cute. He loved watching daddy cast his poll

This was something Nephi has waited his whole life to do, fish with his son. He loved it

"Look at me cast daddy"



No Maverick didn't catch this fish, I did. And of course no one got my picture because I'm the only one that takes pictures. And yes it was very hard for me to let him touch it, don't even worry I WASHED his hands! But I'm happy to say I'm the only one that caught a fish!

It was a great day spent as a family. Nephi thought Maverick was a little hard, but I just kept reminding him that he is a 2 year old. Enough said.

Easter 2009

We had a wonderful time this morning watching Maverick light up to see what the Easter bunny had brought him. This is first thing this morning walking into find his treasures.......



The Easter Bunny brought a new CARS fishing poll so He can fish with Daddy

A mouth full of jelly beans saying "Cheese" could not look any cuter

Tyson's Easter present

My Easter basket

Nephi's Easter basket

And bubba's Easter basket

Its so fun to watch this little family grow and start our own traditions. I also would like to take the time to thank my father in heaven for giving the ultimate gift, his son. I cant help but feel the love of my heavenly father and know that he is here. So many people loose sight of the true meaning of Easter. Having Maverick has let me feel a love I never knew I had in me, I couldn't imagine sacrificing my first and only son. I'm eternally grateful for the gospel and the comfort and strength it gives me. I'm thankful to know that I will be with my family forever. I'm very proud to be a latter day saint in these trying times. I hope that all of you have felt the spirit as I have today and continue to focus on the true meaning of Easter. My heart is overwhelmed

Finally pics of the house

So the best way I would describe my house is, RETRO. It was built in the 70's and I just think it has a lot of character. The yard is a work in progress. We just put some new seed down and covered it in cow poop. So the outside smells lovely. I love the homey feeling it has inside. I only posted a few pics because there is so much more I want to do to decorate it and it just looks plain right now. It has a front room, which I posted a pic of and a HUGE family room. The family room used to be a garage. It was converted to the family room, I didn't post a pic because its huge and boring, nothing on the walls yet. I also didn't post pics of the bathroom, because who really wants to see those. Which we have two of. And I haven't posted Maverick's room yet because lets just say its a work in progress too. We are trying to put him in a big boy bed and when we do I will decorate his room different than it is now. The babies room just has some storage in it right now, boy am I rambling.
Anyway we love love love being here. Last night marked the 5th bar-b-que we have had on our back patio and its not even the middle of April. The weather has been great and We have loved entertaining our friends and feeding them good food. I feel so blessed to finally be in a home. After what I went through in my first marriage and what Nephi did in his, we NEVER thought we would have a house this soon, if ever.



Of course Tyson has to be in the pic, and Maverick is the the doorway of the other living room

The kitchen is on the small side but I dont need more room. There is a pantry you cant see and it holds alot of stuff


Our sweet patio that is so much fun to sit on and watch my son play with the dog

And our big fenced in back yard, of course there is Tyson again. lol

I'M BACK!!!

So after along couple of weeks I'm finally back to the blogging world. We moved into our new house and are loving it!! Its so wonderful to open the blinds in the morning and see the sunshine. I didn't realize how depressing it had become living in a basement. We love the extra space and being able to have our things in a storage room and not taking up our whole closets. Maverick loves being able to play outside in the back yard. The only new thing I have to get used to with that is now he has to have a bath EVERY Night instead of every other the way I was getting away with before. Oh well I guess that's all part of having a boy. I will post some pictures of the house as soon as I take some.
I have my first doctors appointment on Thursday. Its my 10 week, and it feels like its taking forever!! I'm feeling better than I was at the beginning. I'm really tired but what can you expect? The other exciting news is we GOT A NEW DOG!!!!


We weren't planning on it but took Maverick to the shelter to see the doggies and fell in love with a little man named Tyson. OK so he's not little but he and Maverick just love each other and it feels like he should have been here all along. He's a lab, bull mastiff, pit bull mix. He's 2 and full of life. I've been having alot of nightmares with this pregnancy and having a hard time being in a new place, so having Tyson around has totally changed all of that.
Anyway this is a really long post but Ive had alot going on.

Maverick has something to tell eveyone....

If you cant tell, Maverick wasn't really feeling like having his picture taken. But he is so happy to announce that's he's going to be a big brother.

We couldn't be happier. The blessings we have in our lives right now are unreal! New house, New baby, doesn't get any better. The best part of the story is, that the baby will be due on or around my birthday!! October 25th, isn't that the best present ever? Although I am feeling sick with this one and didn't with Maverick I'm so thankful to be pregnant. Fingers crossed that everything goes well.